A Visitation of Light
Remembering Myself Through the Solar Plexus
“There are places in the body where the soul hides until it is safe to return.”
There was a time when I didn’t know who I was.
My sense of self had been shaped by the pain and distortion I inherited as a child. The messages I received told me I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t lovable, and wasn’t safe. Over time, I disconnected from my essence, my soul, and my connection to God. I lost my intuitive knowing. I lost my center.
To survive, I became what others needed me to be. I mirrored, accommodated, and contorted myself to stay connected. I longed to be loved, but I didn’t yet know how to love myself. I handed away my power again and again, hoping someone would return what I had forgotten was mine.
I didn’t know how to feel my emotions in a healthy way. Everything I was sensitive to seemed to make life more complicated. I had no idea how to stop the pain. There were moments when I no longer wanted to be here. I tried to escape through substances, relationships, shopping, and overgiving. I searched for anything that could numb the ache inside.
I lived from the outside in. I constantly looked for guidance, direction, and approval. I avoided pain at all costs. I didn’t know how to be with myself. I didn’t know how to trust my own body or listen to my heart.
Something eventually began to shift.
The Night I Remembered
In 2019, I reached a breaking point.
I had just begun detoxing from years of cannabis use. It had become my lifeline, a way to cope with emotional overwhelm and survive chaos. On that first day of sobriety, I felt physically sick, mentally unwell, and spiritually hollow. My love, the man who would one day become my husband, had ended our relationship. That first year was full of deep feelings, tenderness, confusion, and heartbreak. I was devastated.
At the same time, I was overworked and underpaid, teaching back-to-back hot yoga classes to make ends meet. I was doing my best to raise my three young kids alone, including one with special needs. There was no family nearby. There was no support system. There was only me, unraveling.
That night, something extraordinary happened.
I was lying in bed when a golden woman appeared. Her presence shimmered with grace and warmth. She didn’t speak. She reached out and placed her hand on my solar plexus.
The moment she touched that place just above my navel, my entire being filled with light. I felt warmth. I felt peace. I felt love that had no conditions. There was no fear. There was no effort. Only the truth of who I am.
When I awoke, I was in awe. I had never experienced anything like it. The peace remained. So did the golden glow at my center.
Later, I came to understand that the golden woman was, in fact, me. She was my Higher Self. She was my original essence, returning to me, reminding me of who I am. It was not a dream. It was a soul visitation. A turning point encoded in light. She returned the flame I thought I had lost.
What Is the Solar Plexus?
The golden woman touched the solar plexus for a reason.
This is the energetic center located between the navel and the heart. It is the seat of emotional truth, inner power, self-worth, and soul alignment. It holds our courage, our ability to choose, and our connection to presence.
What It Holds:
The solar plexus is the gateway between the survival self and the spiritual self. It carries emotional stories from the past and the potential of our becoming. It is the home of the inner child, the place where our innocence, longing, and rage coexist. When unacknowledged, this center stores fear, shame, grief, and anger. These energies are not flaws. They are messages asking to be felt and transformed.
When the Solar Plexus Is Blocked:
We feel disconnected from our true self
We experience anxiety, numbness, or overthinking
We give away our power in relationships
We have difficulty setting boundaries or feeling safe in our body
When the Solar Plexus Heals:
We feel emotionally present and grounded
We begin to trust our timing and voice
We respond rather than react
We radiate a quiet confidence from the core of our being
The Deeper Invitation:
Healing this center is not about control or striving. It is about softening. It asks us not to fight for our worth but to remember it. When the solar plexus is free, emotional energy becomes light. This is where the will to live is restored. This is where the body says yes to the soul.
From Fire to Light
That golden night was the beginning of my return.
The path ahead was still winding. My healing did not happen all at once. Yet something had been activated. Something ancient remembered. The fire at my center had been reignited. Not as survival. As truth.
I had been trying to disappear. That night, I began to reappear.
There is something golden that lives in my belly now. It flickers gently. It steadies me. It speaks without sound. I listen when it says, “You are home.”
A Soul Inquiry for You
Take a moment now and place your hand just above your navel.
Ask gently:
What lives in this space right now?
Is it fear, sadness, anger, shame, or something else?
Is there something waiting to be felt?
Is there a light longing to return?
Your body remembers.
Your soul knows the way.
The invitation is simple. Come home to yourself.
A Gentle Invitation
If this speaks to something you’ve lived through, if you have ever felt the ache of not knowing who you are, know that you are not alone.
This is the kind of work we do here at The Healing Portal.
We remember.
We feel.
We transmute.
If you are feeling called to reconnect with your solar plexus, your inner child, or the light of your Higher Self, I am here. This portal is for you.
P.S. This story still lives within me. It now lives in this portal. If something stirred within you while reading, trust that stirring. It is your soul speaking.
